CD 20 and no O

I really thought I had on CD 14 but I guess I don't know my body as well as I thought. I felt those "O pains" and had alot of watery CM. Maybe I was gearing up to but didn't. Oh well, hopefully sometime soon!

DH broke his finger on Monday

And from the looks of it I may have O'd yesterday. (Need a few more temps to confirm of course). But if I did then it looks we're out this cycle. :( Because DH broke his finger he wasn't exactly up for the job. I feel really bad for him. And last night he had just unwrapped his finger and I hit it again. The poor thing started crying! I felt sooo bad! I've only seen him cry probably 2 times ever!

Twilight

I finally watched Twilight last night and OMG it was soo good! I didn't have really high expectations for it to be honest, but by the way everyone was talking about it, I had to see it. I haven't read the book either so I didn't know anything about it and had no idea it'd be somewhat of a love story. So good though! I'd give it an A+. If you haven't watched it yet, go rent it!

On another note, I'm excited about my temp rise today.... we'll see if I have more high temps to follow to see if I O. Still waiting on some fertile CM though...

AF came on Valentine's Day!

Wooohooo! Finally! But seriously, on V-day? You whorebag! Oh well, on to a new cycle.... numero 3! I'm going to temp every friggin day so I know what's going on. This last cycle taught me a lesson! lol It's been reaaally light for me though. I'm not even sure if I should consider it a light flow or more of spotting. I already changed in on FF. I only used one tampon all day Saturday and there was hardly any on there, same thing yesterday. I'm sure I'm reading into this too much.

I was soo disappointed on Friday though. I'm "trying" to lose weight because, well, I don't like being fat. So I've been going to the gym and decided to weigh myself every Friday. So after a week and a half I weighed myself to find out that I gained a pound! WTF! Yeah, muscle weighs more than fat but I've been doing all cardio. Gah can I get a break please? I'm trying to eat smaller, more frequent meals as well. I want to be healthy and not take any pills or starve myself but it really is so hard!

On another note, my kid brother spent the weekend with us. It was alot of fun. DS loooves having him around (brother is 15) so they get to play a good bit. We're taking him back this evening after work. It's great that they're only 1.5 hours away now. They just moved to Montgomery from Myrtle Beach, SC and that was a 9 hour drive. We're kind of celebrating our V-day next weekend because his present is 2 tickets to a Mercy Me concert next Saturday. He did wake me up with a dozen red roses and Krispy Kreme doughnuts though. :)

Just wanted to AW a little bit...

Ahh, that's my heart right there. He would love a brother or sister.... you hear that ovaries?? Make my little dude happy umkay!

Ok anyways, Mikey went for an interview on Wednesday and it went really well. He'd be selling insurance, which isn't at all what he wants to do, but is better than his current job where he wants to pull his eyeballs off every day. He also went in and did some testing for a temping agency just for some other options. Whatever hon, just please bring in some dough! Oh and be happy :)

About my chart. Temp went up again today. Not exactly what I was looking for.... ahem. AF where are ya dear? Can I tempt you to come with some chocolates, cramps and mood swings? I know you like those!

Arrgh!

After yesterday's little temp drop, I was so hoping for another one today. Nope went up again. From 97.50 to 97.65. rrrrrrr..... 97.50 was the lowest that I've had so far since charting, and I had a little bit of cramping last night, so I was just praying for AF. Nope. Still not here. She's hiding in the bushes just waiting to ambush me I'm sure!

Oh and about the CM.... I'm still trying to figure that stuff out. I can definitely tell when it's EWCM but everything else is kinda weird so I only put it on there when I can tell what it is and it's on my undies.

::Sigh::

I was skinny here! Boo! Well, actually yay for then and boo that I'm bigger now.... ugh! A whopping 28 lbs bigger! That's huge for a 5ft 2in gal! This is in the cabin that we rented in the Blue Ridge mountains for our honeymoon.

Anyways, my doc appt. on Friday went ok. I had my pap and will have whatever results next Monday the 16th. He said if I don't get AF by CD 60 then to give him a call and he'd most likely prescribe something to jump start it.

As for DH, he's scheduled to go into testing for a new job on Thursday so hopefully something will pan out in that department.

I took monster to the pet shop on Saturday to look at the puppies and birds because he gets so excited. We're thinking about getting him a puppy this year for his 5th birthday but we'll have to see how that works out. We couldn't stay long because I got upset and wanted to buy them all and take them home with me lol.

Dori fish!

Well...

DH really hates his job right? I mean he would rather scratch his face off than go in to work. I can't really say I blame him though. He works in a call center for a supplemental insurance company with very very high call volume. It's alot of stress and not even close to what he's getting his degree in (which he'll have in June thank God!!). When he comes home from work he always has a new, huge pimple show up. Poor guy.

He went to a job fair yesterday with no luck and it really disappointed him. I know he's put in a million apps for different jobs within the company and out. He flat out told me yesterday that he'd give this job 2 more weeks. If in 2 weeks they don't offer him something else within the company then he's going to put in his 2 week notice. My reaction you ask? "WTF OMG GTFO!" Yep.

We haven't talked any more about it because I wanted to be able to "collect my thoughts" on the matter before I snapped his balls off. I'm pretty sure we're going to need to put TTC off until he finds a job or we at least know what we're doing. Arrghhh I'm so frustrated! On one hand I would hate to ask my DH to go to a job that he despises buuuuttt on the other hand this economy sucks a big donkey dick and if he quits, there's no telling when or where or if he could find another job! WTF doofy DH!

Ok GP

I need your advice. Take a looksie at my chart ---->>>
Should I test? Should I wait longer? I do have a gyn appt. Friday, so I could wait and see what he says I guess.... WTF is up??? Gah this is the ugliest chart I've ever seen! Please leave a comment with whatcha think I should do! ;)

Oh and about my chart

I discarded the first temp at 98.1 because I didn't use the same thermometer. It was a regular old digital one, before I got my BBT later that day. KThanxBai

Did I just accidentally bleach my ute?

So my DH definitely has his own way of cleaning. He decided on Friday, before I got home from work, to "clean" the bathtub. His way of doing that is to pout a gallon of bleach into the bathtub.... and that's it. He didn't rinse or scrub or anything. So that night I went to take a long, hot, much needed bath. I of course turn on the water and get in and start to bathe. After a good 3 minutes I started to smell bleach. So I thought umkay maybe DH cleaned the toilet or something. Then, when I was laying in there I noticed the water looking murky. Hmm ok. So I get out and my skin is burning and feels like my outer layer of skin had been burned off. I must have put on an entire bottle of lotion to try to make it feel better... yeah didn't help. Who wants to bet the bleach water went up my vag into my ute! Great! Thanks hon.... bet that's not good for TTC!

What to do?

Even though DH was being a total douche yesterday, he still managed to do something nice. He got my friend's ( the one that I just found out had cervical cancer and hadn't talked to in months) phone number and address for me. Now I just have to figure out what to do with it. Should I call her? Should I write her a letter? If I write her a letter should I even try to mention the topic of why I'm mad at her? I can't just write something saying "get well soon". I'm sure she's now expecting something from me since DH got the info from her. I just don't know where to start...

DH, I do NOT like you today!

Well, really you started last night but whatever. Seriously, you want to have a "Michelle I can tell you've gained even more weight" convo with me? WTF! My bad you're skinny as hell and have no idea what it's like to try to lose or even control your weight. The only way I've ever been skinny is when I was annorexic. Yes, that's right ANNOREXIC! AND you know that! Yes, that's why I was skinny when we first met (and the fact that I was 16). Yes, that's also why I was skinny for the wedding too. Dontcha think that if you've noticed, then just possibly I've noticed too since it's MY BODY! Maybe just maybe you should turn on your filter for your fucking mouth!
Then today you want to throw a bitch fit because I didn't answer my phone when you called? I was in the bathroom at work and I don't bring my phone with me when I'm in there. DUH! But still that reason isn't good enough for you. How about you jump down from the pedistal you think you belong on and start being a better partner!